Something that only I could understand...

I saw flowers blossomed

I thought they did for a reason

A reason that I could love for

A reason that I could die for

Reason that only I could understand

Reason that only she did not care about

I re-created the memories she had

Only to see her smile

Only to do it again sometime

Because I knew it was important to her

I saw a dream,

A dream to be part of those memories

Dreams that only I could understand

Dreams that only she did not care about

Coincidences happen

But only when they want to tell you something

Something that I felt was special

Something that I felt I could live for

Something that only I could understand

Something that only she did not care about

Till Life meets the Dream...

I met a life,

Beautiful unlike anything in this universe

We started together years back

A relationship so strong yet so fragile

But I always hold her tight

Sometimes I fell behind and chased her rapidly

Sometimes she followed me silently and slowly

But never did she lose faith in me

Coz she knew I couldn’t live without her

Coz she knew I couldn’t die without her

Something happened then,

I don’t know exactly what,

But I realized I was standing alone

Towards the end, 

Too scared to look ahead.

She was still with me

Calm and supportive as always

I saw a dream then,

A dream so beautiful, so extravagant,

That I could not let it go in vain

So I ran, ran and ran some more

Too fast for her to cope up anymore.

I had come too far to go back to her.

I don't know where did I lose her on the way

I had messed up pretty bad, I could say

Wind started blowing against me

Pushing me back to her

I was too stubborn to retreat.

I was too determined to go ahead.

I was blinded by the beauty I saw.

Consequences now follow

So many still so few

I will face them anyways

Bravely as a soldier

And swiftly as music

Till I get both.

Till I get what i deserve.

Till life meets the dream.

Till life meets the dream.

Experience(s)

There are only two reasons why I person writes. Either he wants to or he needs to. The latter fits in my situation.

Sometimes what life gives us isn't enough and it hurts so much that you forget what you actually wanted from your life. The priorities that you had in life start disappearing, the dreams that you once saw almost daily become a past and reality starts kicking in in the dreams too.

Nobody wants to be depressed or pessimistic but yes the truth sometimes become a little difficult to handle which leads you into doubting your own self. Questions start revolving around your mind but no solutions and definitely no answers at all.

The world would have been truly a better place only if there was a way to judge someone's true potential. Nobody would expect more than what he can do and nobody would get less than what he deserves.
But again there's a saying "There's nothing impossible if you have the will and dedication to achieve it."

I guess only one of them can be true. And only with experience(s) we can know the answer.

Mixed Feelings

Half an hour left me to leave for my flight to Bangalore. I've always looked forward to this day, starting my career in the field I've always wanted to. But when I think about it now, something doesn't feel right, leaving home without knowing when will I be able to visit my parents again, probably in 3 months at the minimum.

People have achieved greatness in IT, specially people from BITS Pilani. Its not easy being a BITS alumnus, its a lot of responsibility. I am proud to be a BITSian, I hope the opposite states true after some years i.e. BITS is proud to have me as an alumnus.

Wishing all the best to myself and all my friends for a great career ahead.

Bangalored !! The Reality !

This is a post especially for 3 kinds of people:
1. The IT Crowd
2. People who have never visited Bangalore and imagine it to be the most developed and awesome city of India.
3. People who are Bangalored!!

What does Bangalored means?
It means a lot of things, little good and little more bad.
When a person says he is bangalored, it means at least one of the following:

1. He is happy if he gets a decent lunch in a restaurant for 200 bucks per head.
2. He has become habitual of travelling at least 2 hours a day in bus and/or he has accepted that a day in his life is now 22 hours long only.
3. He considers himself lucky if he is able to cover 8 kms in an hour during office hours.
4. He considers himself a middle class person even after earning Rs. 80,000 per month.
5. He forgets that people in this world do something other than software development also.
6. He goes to office either to eat free food or drink loads of coffee/tea.
7. He forgets that people once used to live in bungalows also.
8. He spends Rs. 250 to attend gigs of those bands whom he had never ever heard about before.
9. He has developed interest in theatre and plays and 200 seems a less price to pay for it.
10. Rs. 300 seems an ok price to pay for a movie on weekends.
11. He is love with the Bangalore weather even when dust due to construction is blowing on his face.

This is the reality of Bangalore. I hope it will clear your doubts about Bangalore, if you had any.

Yes there are good things also, but they are not worth mentioning apart from the fact that I live here :)

A request

You can learn something every moment in your life, only if you know the perfect song for the moment :)

I believe this and If you also do, Please suggest some songs which will help people experience this phenomenon.

Thanks in advance :)

Don't Ask Me !! Not in a state for such creativity!!

Have you ever experienced a state in which you sat for hours and wonder what productive things you could do with this very time that you are wasting?
I'm in that state right now. Fucked up state and hence cannot write sense. Don't blame me afterwards.
So if you irritated already, you are free to get the hell out of here and read some sensible post by Mahatma Gandhi maybe.
Things I learned in recent days and I feel everyone should know this:
1. VGA sucks, use HDMI only for watching movies, video etc.
2. TV Series are only fun in college. At Job everything sucks.
3. You cannot force yourself to read a bestseller novel just because it's a bestseller and you spent 700 bucks for it.
4. Don't plan to eat out for the whole Practice School. Keep something at home that you can cook and eat fresh.
5. Don't think you'll be able to use your BOSS processor with batteries for your whole fucking life. You need an adapter at the end of the day.
6. Don't think that you'll be happy with a brand name with less pay and facilities just because the name is good. In the end what matters is money and benefits. 
7. Money is not everything but somehow it makes you feel much better (if you have it) and worse (if you don't).
8. Don't go out for lunch with your team on a Friday specially if you are a vegetarian. You might feel robbed at the end of it.
9. Contra Jungle Jam on guitar is not that hard. 
9. Solving crossword at Crosswords can be fun.
10. KFC is the 2nd best thing that could have happened to this planet. 1st is KFC at a cheaper price.
11. Don't go to a musical instruments shop and play a guitar for hours just because you will buy it later. In the end shopkeeper might not sell it to you. 
12. Finally,  I realized I want to go back in time as far as possible and end up in a better position in present.
But the fact that I don't know what wrongs I did, will lead me to same place again. Here sitting in Marathalli, Bangalore writing a blog post at 2:30 AM on 15th of April 2012. But still I want to live it all again. Just for the sake of living.

10 years down the line when I'll read this, I will laugh on it more than anybody else. I know. But when you are in this state you can't help it much.

It's 3:00 AM already. Will I sleep or will I live?